I feel like I’m finally ok to start talking about being pregnant now that I’m close to not being pregnant anymore. Weird? Maybe. I think it stems from the fact that I’ve always thought pregnancy was gross (sorry – nothing against the miracle of life and all of that…..) and terrifying. I was right about bits and pieces; it can be gross (some stuff anyway) and all of it is terrifying. But what I’ve also learned is that I had NO idea how insane it would feel to reflect on the fact that my body took a clump of cells and turned it into a fully formed human being with intricate life support systems. I did that. Meanwhile I worked, worked out, maintained relationships, etc. Kind of unreal. Not that I plan on doing this ever again, but hey, at least I did once.
We are currently about four weeks and four days out from meeting our little guy. John Gerard; named after my father and Brian’s. He’ll be Jack for short most of the time; as it’s hard having had a father John, brother John (J, JJ) and cousin John (Johnny). Didn’t leave many options for a nick name – but I’ve always loved the idea of calling a baby Jack (Incredibles maybe) so here we are. His nursery is stocked, we have all the baby care items we need, everything is folded, clean and organized. So now we wait and enjoy a few more weeks of just the fur babies and us til we round out our little fam with 5.
Looking back on my preganncy journey as a whole, there are things I wish I would have done differently (or not done at all) and some I’m glad I did. Since I can’t go back in time, here’s a list for you should you find yourself in a similar situation:
- Read ALL the stuff. Don’t. Just read what you need to know from actual, medical sources and rely on your OB when you need help. I tried reading a book titled “The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy” and could not recommend it any less (linked so you never buy). It is worthless and SO awful. The anxiety I got from it alone was aggravating, along with the severely dated “advice”. It was written in the early 90’s, around the time heroine chic was aspirational and you can tell. SKIP.
- Get the 3D ultrasound. They’re actually really cool and I loved the sneak peek. Obviously this isn’t ideal if you don’t want to know the gender or if you have a high risk preganncy (they frown upon extra, unnecessary ultrasounds). But if you’re healthy and curious – it’s worth every cent.
- Don’t take everyone’s advice to heart. Just because it worked for them (even if “them” is your own mother) doesn’t mean it’ll work for you. YOU have to figure out what you’re going to do and how you’re going to be a parent. You do you.
- Reach out for help if you need it. Depression isn’t just a post partum thing – it can happen during any trimester so be easy on yourself and watch your moods and reach out for help if you need to. You’re already pregnant, don’t double down on the suffering.
- Don’t worry about your body so much. It’s healthy to worry a little bit, but at one point I was depressed and overly terrified I might (gasp) gain weight that I was thisclose to relying on unhealthy eating to help me stay “healthy”. Granted I have a sordid past with an almost deadly eating disorder, so this might not apply to everyone. But it’s hard to love yourself when everything you knew about your body is changing. Don’t sweat it as much – -do what you can, work out when you can and eat what you want within reason. If you gain a ton of weight, you’ll have plenty of time to lose it once baby is here. Focus on being truly healthy for yourself and your baby.
- Keep things private if that’s your thing. If you don’t want to share all the details of your preganncy, don’t feel like you need to. I have felt strongly about this since day one and have shared very little outside of my mom and husband. It’s still my body and what happens is still private to me. Just because I’m growing a baby, doesn’t give everyone free reign to know everything about me. Health or otherwise.
- Don’t download alllll the apps. Almost all are the same anyway so save that storage space. I’d recommend Hatch Babe for a weekly newsletter and the standard What to Expect.
- Don’t buy all maternity clothes. Most are ugly (sorry) and the rest are overpriced. Wait and see what fits and how you grow and then go from there. If I HAD to recommend three pieces of maternity wear to buy, I’d say get:
- a good maternity legging in black. These can be used as a staple in fall/winter dressing or when working out (I love these from A Pea in the Pod).
- good bras – maternity or not – you need to be comfortable
- maternity shapewear (I love Skims Maternity undies. They hold me in and give my growing belly support while staying hidden under clothes).
- Take a babymoon, even if it’s a local one. Go on the dates. Enjoy all of the 1:1 time. It’s literally the last bit of time it’ll be just the two of you for a while, so bond and make some memories for later.
- Like advice, don’t think you have to listen to everything everyone has to say. While it’s polite to not totally walk away from someone mid convo, I’d totally back you up if you said you had to pee and did just that. I’ve had SO many people give me great advice during this journey, but then the other half who I’m pretty sure were just being assholes in telling me “you’ll never sleep again” or “you’re too small, you sure you’re due that soon” or “at least you’re having your first by 35, right” or my favorite “Oh you say you’re only having one, just wait”. No one wants you to jump on them for their life choices or the way their body looks, pregnant or not. So really, if you’re uncomfortable and over all that shit WALK AWAY. You’re growing a human, you’re tired and you have a lot of other MUCH more important things to do.